I Know...

Mon 21 Jun 2010 Filed in: My Life | Reflections | Photos | Grief Notes
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I don’t know why. I don’t know if I ever will. That my son should unexpectedly die in his sleep at 37 doesn’t seem fair. The Almighty undoubtedly knows what He is up to. I don’t. And maybe I don’t need to.

I know Matt is now freer than he has ever been. I know his wonder at God’s grace is growing in God’s presence. I know his pastoral heart that wept with those who weep is weeping no more. I know that his outrageous sense of humor has blossomed into unfettered joy. I know that his Redeemer and mine lives. I know that the Lord he loves has welcomed him home.

And I know that what I know, and what I don’t know, doesn’t erase the pain now that will become joy then.